YES…. I hear you.
You keep asking Me, but I promise I’m listening.
I heard you while you were driving in to work this morning. You were all over the place, but I listened patiently and felt the worry in your heart. So anxious, my son. You get easily diverted by random thoughts. Preoccupied by other drivers. I heard what you said in anger when that white Kia cut you off. So much frustration… so much distraction in you. And that temper… but I forgive you. I made you the way you are, but self-control, boy. Self-control.
I heard you while you were on your walk tonight. Peace, my son. Be still and know that I am God. The world is full of trouble and things that won’t lead you closer to Me. When you listen to those voices, you feel fear and you don’t remember what My Word says. I have overcome the world, remember? Deepen your dependence on Me. Need I remind you that My Word says “DO NOT FEAR” three hundred and sixty-five times? Read it. Re-read it. Then read it again, please.
You’re a little stubborn and apparently need to be reminded that I AM. If I can part the deep waters…If I can calm the winds and the sea with my voice… if I can make the blind see again… then certainly I can handle anything you worry over. Just keep your eyes on me and you will be reminded of it. Keep your eyes on the waves and you’ll sink in them. Just ask Peter.
But, you keep asking so let Me answer.
YES, I hear you. Loud and clear. And I’ve done so much to demonstrate it, but you get frustrated and fearful because I don’t react on your timetable. My ways are not your ways and My thoughts are not your thoughts. I have a plan even when you don’t see it.
Can I ask you a question, my son?
“Why do you doubt?”
Now there’s a question from Me.
Think about it. I’ve told you and I showed you that I love you starting with while you were yet a sinner, I died for you. If I loved you enough to die for you after knowing all you’ve done, then trust me, I hear you. I really care. I love you.
I heard you when you were stalling at bedtime praying for and blessing everyone you knew. Your Mom was tired and frustrated, but I was listening to that long list you had. I was listening when you were learning My prayer with your Granny in Sunday school class – the same prayer I told my twelve followers to pray. I heard you when you asked Me to keep your dog, Honey, from dying and I heard you when you were nervous about your statistics test. I was there listening when you called to Me in the middle of that football game and I calmed you when you worried about giving that presentation in front of those people. I was there taking in every word you prayed when your girls were born and I was listening intently when you begged for peace as a single father. I went before you through all that. I led you to Mary because you finally gave up bitterness and anger and let Me do my thing. I heard the prayers about tuition and laughed at you dancing when the girls got those diplomas. And, oh, how you pray about that little girl growing in your daughter’s tummy. I hear you, Papa. I put her there and I’m growing her all the while listening to you. Yep, all the celebrations, the hurts, the fear, the worry, the gratitude, and even the doubt and distractions… I heard it all and knew it would all be so before you were ever born.
So, my question is fair.
“Why do you doubt Me?”
I haven’t always answered the way you thought I should, but I heard every word of your prayers and handled them the way I needed to handle them. And overall? Not bad, huh? I see eternity. You don’t. You’ve had disappointment when I’ve listened and answered, but you’ve also had great joy when I’ve listened and answered. I know what’s best and I am with you to navigate it all. You’ll understand one day when you can see the bigger picture, but for now… here it comes… yeah, that word that you like to stumble on.
Trust Me.
Not always easy for you, but you know I am right. I am Who I say I am. I am here. I will be with you. Always going before you. Do not be afraid or discouraged. Cast all your anxieties on me because I care for you. Fear not. I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.
I’ve got my eye on you. I never said it would be easy, but I did say in My Word that I am near to all that call on Me. Keep talking to me, Tom. I hear you. I am listening.
Love,
God
